My beloved brother Brett Andrew Ryan tragically took his own life in Perth Western Australia and was cremated at Karrakatta Cemetery WA and his ashes are now in the care of his mother in his home state of Victoria.
You feel a range of emotions when a tragedy like this strikes you and the ones you love and you all feel the searing pain of sudden separation. There is anger and the futile search to understand why Brett could not weather the despair. There are the questions of why, just why? We all feel bruised by this death and keep asking ourselves what we could have done to prevent it. “What could I have done? Why didn’t I see it?” No one knows. And nothing will bring him back. No one is responsible for Brett’s choice but Brett. Death by choice is not a denial of life, it is the cry of despair for more life. We know that Brett leaves much unfinished, unfulfilled, unsaid. There are still things I wanted to share with him, and I'm sure, he with us. The suffering does not end for those that cared for him, feelings of shock, betrayal, anger, sadness, that I'm sure in time will abate to compassion and forgiveness.
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